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Beautiful Dreams

Sitting alone, nearly crying in bed
I simply cannot get her outta my head
Remember the night, so long ago
Twas my only chance, but it--i would blow
The problem was me, the solution so simple
I was shy, kinda scared, and overly dimple
She looked me in the eyes, extended her lips
She made the first move, what a first kiss!
But theres where she caught me--that was the start
The night where she stole, straight up robbed my heart
I wish she'd talk to me so i'd feel less glum
I feel unworthy, like a useless street bum
No, i cannot compare to her sheer, utter beauty
I miss her so much & love her so truly
Though i'd give all my love, it doesn't matter
Its okay, i understand, im not worthy to have her.

Story One

No, I wasn't perfect, but nor were you,
I went too fast, like skipping step 1 and 2.
Unrealistic goals and awkward ambitions had grown
Like a strange love for something unliving and unknown.
No praying, no god, or others could've fixed
I got lost and had fallen, lost sight in a mist
Now, in an endless abyss, alone and so scared,
Am I strong enough? Is this struggle to be dared?

I had lost all my morals, values and beliefs
Then I lost you, and lost all relief.
I battled through the darkness, but surrendered all hope
Seemed no end to that tunnel, so I moaned and groped.

But it was my mistakes that had led to this struggle
Then I remembered, I'm no wizard, I'm muggle.
That's when it hit me, a revelation of sorts,
I AM only human, and simply lost my supports.
Thought i needed outer force to withstand the rout
But if I'd got myself there, I could get myself out.

With confidence, I rose, stared down destiny and mightyly roared
Releasing the negative energy from within that I'd stored.
I steamrolled forward, through webs and through rivers
I fought off monsters, hunger and shivers.

Before I knew it, month had gone by,
I realized how I'd wasted none of my time.
So I pushed on much further and til I saw a dim light,
The end of this sadness, and the end to this strife.
I reached the checkered flag, turned and screamed strongly,
"I win, and you lose," til the darkness sobbed ever-so calmly.

So what had I learned? My strengths? Weaknesses?
Both and neither. I learned I make messes.
I spent that last while fighting all that thought they could
I went on a journey, did what I had known was for good.
However, I realized this brawl wasn't solely my weather
We needed to do this, and do this together
I'm here to help if needed, but its all up to you,
Will you try us again, so happily we can say, "We powered right through."

Untitled

Hey there, momma. Yo, how've you been dad?
Its me, your son, hope this makes you mad.
But I'm back for good, yup, I've finally returned.
Only now, this is my house and ooh yeah, I've matured!
This life you gave me is a war I'm here to end.
Look around at what you've done, your life is a regret.
The world as you know it, as of now is done
Do these conflicts cease your battles? Not even one.
The way it looks to me, through my humble perspective,
Your disagreements've turned a combat, and guns get expensive.
Leading to problems B-Z, government taxes and political sovereignty,
Electing those manipulated, and swarms of domestic poverty.
You are the initial cause to the quandary, and I'm the Guerrilla with a solution.
I'll overthrow your office, and bring hiatus to your reign of pollution.

Ode of Odes

I've begged, Ive plead', so many nights I've spent on my knees,
Though time was not wasted, it seemingly freezed.
My vertebrae creek 'cause this position I'm in,
Constantly in a state of desolation, I've been.
The fruit of my bosom has soured like milk,
Like it sleeps in a bed of death and its flower has wilted.
Just as you have, my pleaseant demeanor has vanished,
And over this time, happiness was deprived and so famished.
Its been a year, maybe two, but an eternity it seems
And ever since, my hopes and dreams are in smithereens
Forever lost in oblivion; but to where haveyou escaped?
All i feel is nostalgia because your departure raised the stakes.
Though my infinite compassion is hopelessly illuminated above,
No words could possibly describe how i truly feel, in love.

Remembering Brock Jones

A friend, student, family member, and son
A part of the community, and simply an acquaintance to some.
Our worldly labels can no longer judge him, His child
For his time had come, His intentions unknown and reasoning veiled.
"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."(1)
So let us not mourn, but rejoice in the life of young Brock Jones.
Because, "In my father's home there are many rooms,
If it were not so... would I go to prepare a place for you?"(2)
Though his physical being has departed, we need not worry or dawn,
Reserved is his place in Heaven, safe is his soul where it has gone.
Brock was a smart, loved, respected young man,
Know that he was borrowed, not taken, by His loving hand.
And although he never told us "remember," we will not forget,
For compassion is enduring, and in our hearts he will be forever kept.

(1) proverbs 17:22
(2) john 14:2