My drug

Marijuana, coke, LSD

Girl, you are my only ecstasy,

I don't need a hit or a pill to pop

I just need your heart to never stop

Beating for me, beating for us

Your face to me, to see is a must

You are the dealer, I come only to you
I simply need a kiss or two.
Lovaholics Anonymous's where I should go
But I'm not the same when I'm alone.
I get loopy and lost in a world
Of polka-dotted rainbow squirrels.
Its become a need, its rather obscene

My addiction has taken over me.

I Despise

Oh she knows she's got me hypnotized

When I look right into her eyes

And she is the only prize

Of praying up into the skies

But sadly, to my demise

She's the only girl that I despise.

She used to be so good to me

By my side is where she'd wanna be

Her looks belonged on movie screen

Nothing less than a sight to see

And though she drove me crazy

She's gone away, unfortunately.

She's only mess that I despise making

The only heart that I recall breaking

And though the both of us are sadly mistaking

We are also terribly faking

The fact that we ain't contemplating

That nonce again that will we be dating.

I'd take back all the wrongs that I've done

I'd admit that I lost and she won

I'd fix all the webs that I spun

And all the stupid fights that I had begun.

I'd apologize for causing frustration

'Cause she's the only one, that's the one.

Happiness

Happiness

Okay, this took 2 hours to write (usually it takes me 10-20 minutes). And I did a total of zero minutes proofreading... actually I didnt even re-read it at all, so bear with me!! Thank you for reading.

What is happiness? And where can I find it?

Well, if it stays between me and you,

I really haven't got a clue.

The Dictionary says its joy, contentment, and pleasure,

but these things are really impossible to measure.

We all have happy stories of times we were glad,

but how come we never tell good tales of times bad?

We're all caught up in material, and our own selfish pleas, 

There is never enough happiness because no one is ever fully pleased.

Happiness is giggling and bountiful laughter

Happy is the life goal everyone is after.

We do what we do because we are creatures of substance,

our lovers, our hobbies, happiness drives our existence.

It's true what they say, money cant buy it, 

the rich and the wealthy, not even they can find it.

So really, what is it? Is it something we feel?

And how do we get it? Is it even real?

Sometimes, I guess, its just being alone,

Listening to music, playing on your phone,

Laying in bed or going on a peaceful walk,

Or even looking in a mirror and having a nice long talk.

Taking a shower and washing everything away,

Or falling sleep early in anticipation of a new day. 

Chomping some chips, sipping a soda on your La-Z-Boy,

Yes, sometimes being alone brings us a certain joy.

Happiness can come from the bonds of friends and lovers,

For some, it comes from the feelings those people uncover.

To truly find happy, we must overcome obstacles and whims,

To truly overcome, we must forgive our own sins.

Sometimes we must sacrifice and lower expectations,

But we've always got to apply our power of adaptation.

Look at the bright side, there are always others less fortunate,

And sometimes, what makes us happy--we've got to let go of it.

To be happy, those around us must be also,

We must balance our struggles and get over our ego.

Happiness and smiling, they go hand in hand,

But don't take it for granted, because it can't be canned.

Feed off the sad, learn from our mistakes,

Life is a race, take your foot off the brakes.

Turn the heartache into joy, make that reversal,

And always remember, happiness is a goal--universal.

To nobody, really...

Sorry for our struggles and all my mistakes, 

All of my yelling that gave you headaches.

I was abusive, I hit you so hard,

I left you emotionless, painfully scarred,

Not on the out, but inside your heart.

I left you imprisoned, windows were barred.

The things I did to you ruined your existence,

Put you through hell without assistance.

Wait, this never happened, I'm not to blame,

You're at fault, you get all the shame.

You did this to me, know how I feel?

Of course you don't, your so worthless its unreal,

Now that I've moved on and found a new home,

I say, up your bitch, now you're alone.

CODY ANTE

True and Thru

A rhyming story i wrote about life and its struggles, and the beauty of independence, but having someone by your side to celebrate with is much more satisfying. Enjoy!:D

No, I wasn't perfect, but nor were you,
I went too fast, like skipping step 1 and 2.
Unrealistic goals and awkward ambitions had grown
Like a strange love for something unliving and unknown.
No praying, no god, or others could...'ve fixed
I got lost and had fallen, lost sight in a mist
Now, in an endless abyss, alone and so scared,
Am I strong enough? Is this struggle to be dared?

I had lost all my morals, values and beliefs
Then I lost you, and lost all relief.
I battled through the darkness, but surrendered all hope
Seemed no end to that tunnel, so I moaned and groped.

But it was my mistakes that had led to this struggle
Then I remembered, I'm no wizard, I'm muggle.
That's when it hit me, a revelation of sorts,
I AM only human, and simply lost my supports.
Thought i needed outer force to withstand the rout
But if I'd got myself there, I could get myself out.

With confidence, I rose, stared down destiny and mightyly roared
Releasing the negative energy from within that I'd stored.
I steamrolled forward, through webs and through rivers
I fought off monsters, hunger and shivers.

Before I knew it, month had gone by,
I realized how I'd wasted none of my time.
So I pushed on much further and til I saw a dim light,
The end of this sadness, and the end to this strife.
I reached the checkered flag, turned and screamed strongly,
"I win, and you lose," til the darkness sobbed ever-so calmly.

So what had I learned? My strengths? Weaknesses?
Both and neither. I learned I make messes.
I spent that last while fighting all that thought they could
I went on a journey, did what I had known was for good.
However, I realized this brawl wasn't solely my weather
We needed to do this, and do this together
I'm here to help if needed, but its all up to you,
Will you try us again, so happily we can say, "We powered right through."

My Peak

you are not me, and i am not you

i just dont wanna bid you adieu.

think of the word, three letters, bye

this's whats become of you and i.

broken today, repeated tomorrow,

this path again, i will not follow. 

so far apart, but seconds away, 

a few simple words'll make it okay. 

oh but, no, though the world's at an end

and you couldnt even be my friend.

you couldnt care, or give a rats ass,

a "good night" a day is all i asked.

im not a stalker, im not a freak

im just in love, love strong not weak.

i was afraid, what else could i do?

i just couldnt get over you.

memories, dreams, hopes and wishes

rights, wrongs, hits and misses.

the bad things of late, ill always regret

the good of ago, ill never forget.

when the going got tough, you simply rolled over

so much for being, my four leaf clover.

not bashing on you one bit at all,

but im at my peak and i refuse to fall.

CODY ANTE

Let Me

She's the only one that knows

The way I work, the way it goes.

I only wanna be her guy,

But I never even cross her mind.

Oh, how much I miss her so,

But all my chances I just blow.

For weeks on end, I've acted a fool,

I've been a jackass, a heartless mule.

But that was not the real me

And now I need a chance you see

To prove I'm not the same old ass,

With the real me, I just lost grasp

Now, you see, I'm back again

So please, oh please, just one more attempt.

I swear I'm not an obsessive weirdo

I just love you lots, mi amigo.

But I'm past all that I promise you,

I just want our friendship to continue.

I'm sorry it's so hard for me to give up,

I just want an answer, please don't erupt

You know me better than all else combined

That's why we should be intertwined

So please my very best friend ***ey

Will you let me back in, Cody Allen Ante?

CODY ANTE

What is?

What is love to me? Nothing more or less than a faithful opportunity. It is to look into a mirror and see you by my side, then turn around to nothing that i find. It is an every-night-dream of only your smile Or going to the store seeing you down every aisle. But its so much more than simply you and I, More than looking into your eye to get a little high. It is you finger in which I place a ring, Its having a dream like Martin Luther King, Its the good and the bad through and through, It is the next 70 years of only me and you, Its crossing husband from my bucket list, And the feeling on our lips from every first kiss. It is the very beauty of our children, And at our wedding saying "I do" and "Amen" It isn't me writing something clever, Its about me caring for you for only ever.

                      CODY ANTE

Bulletproof

my name aint iyaz but im bulletproof, you gimme a chance ill give you the truth, what im tryin to find i felt from the start, got lots on my mind your love in my heart, what im tellin you is hard to admit, no need to worry no need to commit, ive fallen for you ive fallen so far, your so beautiful you shine like a star ill do everything just to see you smile, ill do anything go the extra mile, no matter what happens im here for you, anything that happens we can get thru, you are the greatest to me that is clear, you know that its true my love is sincere, together with you makes me feel alive, i know in my heart that our love could strive, all of these rhymes just to win you over, i want you to be my four leaf clover, wrote this for you its okay to decline, what im tryin to say is please be mine.

                CODY ANTE

Sum Mer o' Her

Shall I compare thee to a summers day,

Like frolicking deer happy and gay,

Two stars ashine with beauty blue of the sky,

Explode like sunlight at the blink of an eye,

Complexion like that of a dozing sun,

Every moment spent like a child just having fun,

Birds all asinging with an angelic voice,

Wind blowing so freely without even a choice,

Taken to a place serene full of peace,

Warmth of the heart no need for a fleece,

Ever-so changing like a cloud flowing through the heavens,

With thee i've been so lucky like rolling 3 straight sevens,

Clean cut grass freshly picked berries,

Built me a home like a snail softly carries,

Every hair on your head like waves of the lake,

Flows so perfectly calmly like its a piece of cake,

Leaves on the trees vibrant and alive,

Working together like a busy beehive,

Rosey red lips like a newly bloomed carnation, 

The shine in between is like a late night constellation, 

And as the full moon now becomes arisen,

Forever between us no more division.

CODY ANTE

Rewind & In My Sea

So let's rewind, back to the time.

2009, you caught my eye.

You took control, 2000 fold.

You stole my mind, with love divine..

An aurous silk, velvet like milk.

You've got the traits, our future awaits.

You've got the most, you're unopposed.

It's you I see, that's made for me.

We're more than lust, forever like the Earth's crust. 

CODY ANTE

I just want to borrow the ocean

'Cause you're the only fish that's in my sea.

Even though our love seems a torture

I'm sure that you and I are meant to be

For you and me to grow old together,

Honestly fulfill a lifelong dream.

Never know where life will take us

But hopefully mine involves you

Our love is gold and it will never rust

A destiny with you I will pursue. 

CODY ANTE

Hey, you

How have we come to be?

First day on the bus I made you sit with me.

Both tried not to look dumb.

Could not have predicted what we have become.

Been here for me the whole time thru.

Figured its time to return the favor to you.

You've been thru the shit.

Though you deserved none of it.

Im here to save you from all the Ashland a-holes.

All they deserve for christmas is one big lump of coal.

Thee nicest girl I know.

You don't think your pretty, but I think you glow.

I love that lil braid you put in your hair.

And your middle name which is blair!

That one hand holding thing we did at transformers 3.

Thats what broke the ice between you and me.

When we walk around, we do a lil kissin

Couple days later its you that im missin.

We got lots in common!

Both like the noodles that are ramen!

I guess I should get to the point.

So you can get back to smokin your joint(jk)

As long as there r cows saying moo.

Ill really like you:) 

CODY ANTE

Only You

It is only you, for which feel like no other.

It is in my arms, that you I want to smother.

For it is exclusively thee.

That has broken through to me.

As you've cured all the pain.

And cleared all the rain.

Thus creating a chain.

From my heart to my brain.

I know that what you've done.

Has only just begun.

Cause you've got the antidote.

And you've built such a mighty moat.

Around both our hearts.

So they'd never be split apart.

I've expressed it so clearly.

That i love you so dearly.

So ill wipe away your tears.

Destroy all your fears. 

It will all be okay.

Though were not together today.

Ill be with you tomorrow.

To vanquish your sorrow.

CODY ANTE