Unspoken

The door that said pull
I mistakenly pushed.
The cup was half full
Til it fell in the bush.
I was ready to change it
All it needed was time.
But my petty impatience
Ruined that dream of mine.
Now I try and I try
Though my attempts are in vain
No matter what, no matter why
It makes me happily insane.
I'll never stop or surrender
Cause this is my only desire
And the only contender,
The only light to my fire.

If my sorry meant a thing
I'd be smiling instead.
What was a little sting
Has cancerously spread.
It's probably implied
That this apology is broken
Cause I'm stupid and I lied
So it's going unspoken.

She was the door
Her saddened past was the lock
Thought I had it and scored
But I fucked up, and lost.